end of the year / much thanks

Today is Tuesday December 10, 2013.
It has almost been 12 months since January 1st, 2013.
Crazy.

This year has been... a roller coaster. I've had some very incredible ups.
I've written before about the incredible beginning of 2013 and all my awesome opportunities that have been given to me in some form or another throughout the whole year, all of which I am most grateful for.

I have also had some really low points this year as well.
Which I won't really go into.
You all heard about some of it.

However, I will say that these low points have been some of the best learning experiences of my life thus far.

The situations, arguments, moods you find yourself in. Some of the most terrible / best ever (in retrospect)
But they don't make sense at first. You fight and fight and fight and try to tell yourself you know what you're doing but really, you don't. You think the way you feel can be dealt with easily. It's can't.
And you start behaving in ways that aren't normal and telling yourself they are.

Then later you can look back on them and see them for what they are.
Learning experiences.

I feel like I've brought that subject up a lot in the last year.

But that's what this blog has been really. Learning. An exploration of self. Some sort of strange, Kid Cudi/Kanye West fueled existential crisis shit.
It's kind of like I left my journal open on my desk.
And you snuck in and read it!
You rat bastards. (just kidding)

But really. I left it there for you.
Cause I like you.
I want to let you know about me. But in all honesty I'm much better at telling you about myself through my writing. I have always felt that I was much better at expressing exactly my feelings or thoughts with written (typed?) word.

I wouldn't normally open up to you, in public anyway.
I rarely leave the house.  If not only for snacks.
So this is kind of how I keep in touch with you.
And I'm always honest with you when I write.
Except for when I don't tell you things....             ;)

I've had friends (of which I consider a very great deal of you) tell me that they actually read and enjoy my blog.
I never believe them at first. It's always followed by "Do you really?!" with a goofy ass smile plastered on my face.

It makes me glad to know that you all care so much to read all this shit I've been writing about for the past year and to keep reading and even compliment me on it.

Thank you so much.

On another note, this will probably be my last entry until 2014.
I'm headed home for the holidays! and I'm taking the rest of the year off.
(I know it's only the tenth, shut up)
To see my folks and friends back in good old Elko.

You have all been the best.