checking in/change/doubt and some pics

Checking in.

Strange how looking back on all the things I’ve written in the two years I’ve been running The Reaches, that there are some things that I read and don’t believe that I have written them.

Change.

I remember a very distinct day in my childhood that I want to share with you.

I was obsessed with military action figures when I was growing up. Not GI Joe’s, but another off brand version called Ultimate Soldier.

I had Jeeps, helicopters, weapons, a whole goddamn cache of weapons that made the rest of my toys shiver in their lining/stuffing/molding/whathaveyou.

I was into this shit for sure.

Almost every damn day I played with those things.

Recon missions, raids, shootouts, extractions, top-secret missions.

The boys and I had countless adventures.

One day I pulled out the big plastic container that held my ultimate soldier collection and went to setting them up in a base camp so that we could hash out a plan for out next mission. But something wasn’t right. I wasn’t having fun.

I picked them up and began playing a through scenario. But it still just didn’t feel right.

I put them all away and didn’t ever really pick them up again.

And it wasn’t because I didn’t think they were awesome, there was just something about playing with them that wasn’t the same as it had been hundreds of times before.

When the time came to get rid of them, I remember being super bummed about the whole affair but not heartbroken. I was happy some other kid was going to get the chance to hang out with the guys like I had.

(I KNOW THIS IS ALL VERY TOY STORY-ESQUE….FUCK YOU)

I was thinking about this moment just the other day.

And it made me realize that despite all this change around me, it is something worth embracing.

Embracing change in the best way to grow.

Funny to think, a random moment from my childhood that stuck with me for some unknown reason for about the last 15 years, showed me something that has been in front of me for some time now.

Change is never easy. It leaves most of us feeling lost and scared.

Doubting the ideas we’ve had and the things we’ve done for the longest time.

Making us claw at our soul until it’s raw and dripping.

It never hurts to get lost in the trip of change, but you must remember to not get stuck.




I've been pretty absent this summer.
Here are a few scattered pics of what i've been up to.

fell in a dumpster trying to take this last one here.