Tuesday, October 28, 2014

Happy Halloween / Dispatcher 143

Halloween is one of my favorite holidays.

I've been busy not writing... and doing... stuff.

Below is a story I wrote last year. It's going to get recycled, along with a few other stories on here, for a zine I'm hoping to put out at some point. But I sure do a lot of hoping sometimes.

Anyway!
I really like this story.
I was watching Taxi Driver a lot and a not really liking my living situations and spending a lot of time in my room. This is what came of that.



Theodore didn’t do this job because he liked it. Working long, countless hours shuttling all these assholes from point A to B as quickly as he could had lost its appeal. Chasing all these bells and flags left him feeling drained and taught him to despise people.
“Cab 26 pick up, please.” Dispatcher 143 said.
A smile crept onto Theodore’s face.
At least 143 was nice to talk to.
He picked up his mic, cleared his throat and answered,
“this is Cab 26. How are you 143?”
“I’m doing fine,” she giggled back.
“Good, good. That’s great.”
“Could you do me a favor, babe?” 143 asked.
“For you 143, I might.”
“Could you take a fare to the airport? I know it’s out of the way, but everyone else is taken at the moment. It would just tinkle me pink if you could make it over there?”
Theodore sat up in his yellow cab, put it into
drive and asked, “where to?”
“2nd South and 3rd East, Liberty Midtown Apartments.”
“One of these days I’m going to have to meet you, and find out who I’ve been doing all these favors for,” Theodore laughed.
“Oh Teddy, you’re the best...”
And as he sped his way towards the mark he said, with a smile on his face that 143 couldn’t see, he simply answered…

“Anything for you, 143.”

-

Theodore’s shift had ended a couple of hours ago. It was about 1:30am and he had parked at a Mexican restaurant at the south-east corner of North Temple and 8th West. He sat slumped down in his cab peering towards the opposite corner of the intersection, at the pink-haired girl, wearing a long brown fur coat. She had been standing there for about 30 minutes, around the time her last job ended. She had taken the man who had approached her by his arm and escorted him up the street, away from lights and people so that they could do what he had come there to do. Theodore didn’t think any less of her because of her line of work. People need to eat. He drove a cab, she had sex for money. She stood there, moving her legs to and fro to keep warm. He put the cab into drive and made his way across the intersection and back around. He pulled up to where she stood and rolled down his passenger window.

“Hi, I’m Theodore.”
“I’m Janet.”
“Janet, it’s nice to meet you. Do you need a ride somewhere?” Theodore said with a smile.
“Oh no, I’m waiting for a friend, they should be here soon,” she answered.
“Well, I know I’m in a cab, but I was wondering if I could give you a ride somewhere? I was just headed home, that’s why I’m still in the yellow.
“Ohhhhh baby! Why didn’t you just say so?” Janet said as she approached the car.
As she got close, Theodore leaned over and opened the door for her.
“And a gentleman, too!"
As she sat down in the cab, she moved all the way across the bench seat and sat next to him.
“It’s okay if I sit in the middle, right?” she asked with a smile on her face.
As Theodore caught her gaze, he took in all her features. She was very attractive. She must have been around 35 years old, her skin was dark and smooth and her smile was very endearing. He wondered if 143 looked anything like Janet.
Her amber eyes met his, “What did you say you’re name was again?”
“Theodore.” He answered.
She put her hand on his thigh, squeezed and said, “alright Teddy, let’s go for a ride.”
“Okay,” Theodore said with a smile

-

It was about 11:30pm, Teddy waited for his next fare in the parking lot of the huge oval park that sat near the intersection of 700 East and 1300 South, playing with a lock of Janet’s soft, pink hair.

“Cab 26, are you there?”
Theodore cleared his throat and answered, “143, is that you?”
“No Teddy, it’s the other girl of your dreams,” 143 said sarcastically.
“Ohh 143, there’s nobody else but you in my mind.”
143 was laughing out loud now, “Oh Teddy darling stop, some people need rides.”
“People?! Oh no, not people! Can I just sit here and talk to you all night?” Theodore joked.
“Yes, people! And no you can’t. They’re waiting at 9th and 9th and I need you there 5 minutes ago.”
“I’m there in 4.”
“Thanks Teddy, you don’t know how much it means that you’re going to do this for me.”
Theodore slipped the bit of pink hair into his shirt pocket and started making his way towards the 9th and 9th district.

“Anything for you, 143.”

-

143 had sent Theodore to 2nd and 2nd around 9pm to pick up another random who needed to make their way home, this time it was some businessman catching a late ride home after getting his fill of expensive cocktails.

“Hey man, could you get me back to my condo on 7th and 33rd ?” slurred the suit in the backseat.
“You got it, should be 20 minutes or so with traffic.”
Theodore hated picking up these drunk, rich types, he kind of weekend warrior who only had his money and his wardrobe to talk about.
“Hey! You’re not my regular guy, but I guess that’s cool.”
“Yeah, he was a little slow to the draw, huh?”
“Did you see that chick I was with, man?” he asked. “She had some melons. If I could, I would pay to do terrible things to her.”
“That’s great, really.” Theodore answered.
“You ever done cocaine off a stripper’s ass before?” the guy kept going. “That’s the life, dude. That’s the life…”
This guy was a jerkoff and this was why Theodore hated picking up drunks. Just as he was reaching to turn up the radio to drown out the businessman’s banter, a call from dispatch came through.
“Teddy baby, pick up.”
“Yeah, 143? What’s up?”
“That guy is a real creep,” she answered.
“I know, he just keeps talking and talking and talking.”
“Aren’t people just the worst?” 143 asked.
“Yes, they are.”
“Hey man, who the fuck are you talking to up there?” the businessman asked from back.
“Would you do me a favor, baby?” asked the lovely voice on the other end of the radio.

“Anything for you, 143.”

-

It was about 8am when Theodore arrived at the shop. He rarely stopped by, if not only to get his cab’s bi-annual maintenance taken care of. He had only gone into the offices once of the cab company for his short interview with his boss, Dave Shumaker. Despite his few visits he had never had the chance to make it by the dispatch office and meet 143. Today, he thought, was the day he’d finally get to put a face to the voice. He parked his taxi outside and made his way in, passed Enrique who was on a creeper, working underneath another yellow taxi.
“That you, Ted?”
“Sure is! How are you, E?” Theodore stopped and stood beside the car as Enrique continued to work.
“I’m good, man. How’s the cab?” he asked as he continued to work under the vehicle.
“She’s good, she’s good.”
“You gonna be here for a bit? I can take a look at her if you want,” he offered.
“Oh no, I’m only going to be here for a bit but like I said, she’s doing fine.” Theodore answered.
“Alright, well I’ll see you around, bro.”
“Yeah, good to see you.”

Theodore left the shop and made his way inside to the small building that made up the offices of the taxicab company. He made his way towards where he believed the dispatch could be. Did he hear 143’s voice? He swore he could. He reached the door, where he thought she would find her and stopped. He could hear chatter and hissing and pops from radios. He took a deep breath and reached to turn the handle of the door.
“Ted? Is that you?” Theodore jumped when the voice came from behind him and as he turned around, he met the eyes of his boss, Dave.
“Shit, sorry! Didn’t mean to scare you, my boy,” the old man said.
He stood there in his old faded blue jeans, and ruffled white shirt, a friendly old face accented by big wire framed glasses.
“You’re fine Mr. Shumaker, long night, my nerves are kind of shot.” Theodore replied.
“Well sleep will fix that, you know!”
“Yes sir, I seem to be having trouble with that lately.”
“You know, Ted, while I’ve got you here I wanted to talk to you about some things.”
Theodore wanted so badly to meet 143. He could hear the hisses and pops and the radio banter still coming from the room behind him and he could anxiety begin to well up inside him.
“What’s up?”
“Well some of the other drivers have been coming to me and telling me some peculiar things,” said Shumaker.
“Oh? Like what?” Theodore asked suspiciously.
“Well first, Johnson said that there were two or three days in a row where he saw you sitting in the same parking lot downtown, just slumped down in your cab, staring off into nothing.”
“Well I…” Theodore began.
“And Filmore said he saw you out and about in your cab, even taking fares when you weren’t even on duty… you know you can get in serious trouble for that, right?”
“Mr. Shumaker, I…”
“And then Rodriguez came in last night mad as hell, ranting and raving about how you poached a regular of his. Some hotshot, businessman who always needs a pick up from 2nd and 2nd real late.”
Theodore was at a loss of words. The color drained from his face and the palms of his hands grew damp.



“I want you to take the rest of the week off, Ted. Get some sleep, you might feel better.”
“Yeah, sure thing…” Theodore said blankly.
“What are you doing here this early, anyway?” the old man asked.
“Oh I was just stopping in to say hello, figured I’d swing by the dispatch office and see who I take all my orders from.”
Mr. Shumaker looked at him strangely.
“Dispatch office?” he asked.
“Yeah! I was just about to head in when you caught up with me.”
“Are you talking about this room?” Shumaker said as he pointed over Theodore’s shoulder to the door, behind which the lovely 143 sit.
“Yeah, I can hear talking and radios in there.”
The old man moved to the door and before opening it said,
“This isn’t a dispatch office, this is a broom
closet, my boy.”
And sure enough behind the door lay a janitors cart, on which sat a radio that someone had left on. The hisses and pops echoed miles inside Theodore’s head.
“We don’t even have a dispatch office, I share the space with the other two guys who run the bells.”
“Guys?” Theodore asked. “What about Dispatcher 143?”
“Who?”
“Dispatcher 143, the girl who does dispatch later at night. The one I take all my calls and do all the favors for?”
“Son, there is no woman dispatcher at this company,” the old man replied.
Theodore’s head started to pound, and his vision began to blur.
“Ted, are you alright?” Shumaker asked. “I think you should head home, I think you need some rest.”
“Yes… I’m sorry Mr. Shumaker… I’m… very tired… I…I’m going now.”
Theodore made his way out of the offices and back through the shop, headed towards his car. As he stepped out into the morning light, he saw Enrique examining the trunk.
“Hey,” Enrique called as Theodore approached. “What the hell did you hit, man?”
As Theodore joined him at the back of the car, he saw what Enrique was talking about. Blood from the bashed head of the businessman had somehow made its way onto the rear bumper of his taxicab. He must have missed it when he wiped down the car the night before.
“Oh… I… don’t know… rabbit? Yeah, a rabbit…” Theodore was flustered.
“Are you alright, bro?” Enrique asked.
“Yeah, fine. I have to go.”
As Theodore pulled away from the cab company, he checked his rearview mirror and saw both Mr. Shumaker and Enrique watching him as he drove off.

-

“Cab 26 pick up, please.” 143 said over the radio.
The pounding in his head seemed to ease.
Theodore reached for his mic, cleared his
throat and said,
“I missed you, 143.”
“I missed you too, Teddy. I’m sorry we didn’t get meet, but maybe one day.”
“Yeah, I really look forward to it...”
“Hey, Teddy…”
“Yes, 143?”
“Can you do me a favor?”

“Anything for you, 143.”



Tuesday, October 14, 2014

checking in/change/doubt and some pics

Checking in.

Strange how looking back on all the things I’ve written in the two years I’ve been running The Reaches, that there are some things that I read and don’t believe that I have written them.

Change.

I remember a very distinct day in my childhood that I want to share with you.

I was obsessed with military action figures when I was growing up. Not GI Joe’s, but another off brand version called Ultimate Soldier.
I had Jeeps, helicopters, weapons, a whole goddamn cache of weapons that made the rest of my toys shiver in their lining/stuffing/molding/whathaveyou.
I was into this shit for sure.
Almost every damn day I played with those things.
Recon missions, raids, shootouts, extractions, top-secret missions.
The boys and I had countless adventures.

One day I pulled out the big plastic container that held my ultimate soldier collection and went to setting them up in a base camp so that we could hash out a plan for out next mission. But something wasn’t right. I wasn’t having fun.
I picked them up and began playing a through scenario. But it still just didn’t feel right.

I put them all away and didn’t ever really pick them up again.
And it wasn’t because I didn’t think they were awesome, there was just something about playing with them that wasn’t the same as it had been hundreds of times before.

When the time came to get rid of them, I remember being super bummed about the whole affair but not heartbroken. I was happy some other kid was going to get the chance to hang out with the guys like I had.

(I KNOW THIS IS ALL VERY TOY STORY-ESQUE….FUCK YOU)

I was thinking about this moment just the other day.
And it made me realize that despite all this change around me, it is something worth embracing.
Embracing change in the best way to grow.

Funny to think, a random moment from my childhood that stuck with me for some unknown reason for about the last 15 years, showed me something that has been in front of me for some time now.

Change is never easy. It leaves most of us feeling lost and scared.
Doubting the ideas we’ve had and the things we’ve done for the longest time.
Making us claw at our soul until it’s raw and dripping.


It never hurts to get lost in the trip of change, but you must remember to not get stuck.




I've been pretty absent this summer.
Here are a few scattered pics of what i've been up to.














fell in a dumpster trying to take this last one here.





Tuesday, September 9, 2014

ignore this.

I can never seem to stop the stream of thoughts trickling through my mind.
It’s alarming to me, that despite being able to appear calm and collected on the outside, a person can have a war raging, out of control, vicious and infectious, in their mind. I never realized that thoughts could drive someone mad.

I try to think back to when I was younger, let’s say 18, and remember what was going to through my mind at that time, as I sat in those classrooms, came along for those car rides, spent time alone in my room. I honestly can’t tell you what I was thinking, but I know my perception of things, people, the world wasn’t what it is nowadays.
I never sat around thinking the words people used or their body language.
I don’t ever remember contemplating whether or not I was a terrible person for the choices I had made, I just made them.
I flew by the seat of my pants through those years.
And now at 25 (I won’t go on about being an old soul, as mine still has much aging to do) I’m sitting here and I’m thinking about all my choices and decisions. Actions and inactions.
People say “live with no regrets,” something I held very dear when I was younger.
How many people did I hurt, how many events did I set myself up that would eventually trap me and leave me with the baggage I have now?
I don’t regret the things I’ve done, but I do think about them. Sort them out in my mind.
We are so ruled by our emotions when we’re younger it’s hard not to live with a “no regrets/in the moment” mentality and abuse the hell out of it.
But after we chalk up a few more years and the tears are still welling up and the purging of them doesn’t fix anything anymore, what the fuck are you supposed to do?
Think about it. Figure that shit out because if you don’t it will haunt you, and you’ll let it for the rest of your life.


And on top of that, one day you will die and all those thoughts in your mind will cease.
And then what good was all that self-torment and introspection?


P.S. I’m just kidding about that last statement (kind of).

Keep your mind sharp and never stop thinking.

Wednesday, August 27, 2014

come fly with me.

The moon had been creeping its way through the blinds for several
nights in a row.
He lay in his bed, which was tiger-striped by moonlight and blinds, and stare back at the satellite through the slits in the horizontal vinyl.
His eyes wandered down to his arms and legs, which were also adorned with soft-grey and dark black lines.

A window on the other side of the room, framed by red curtains, was left open as it was the only way to combat the insufferable heat of mid summer in his small apartment that overlooked a small alley in the city.
A somewhat dreary view, but at least it was something to look at.
Buildings. Bricks and mortar.

While going over the events that had occurred during his day in his mind, he lay there but his attention was drawn to something that was coming
from outside.

“Come fly with me, let’s fly, let’s fly away…”

He knew the classic Sinatra tune right away, regardless of how quietly it was being sung in the stale summer air.
He made his way to the open window and looked down into the alley below.
In the moon-bleached passage, there was nothing.
Save for the normal alleyway stuff, trash, bins, pallets etc.
But the song was definitely coming from some dark corner of
the city backstreet.
He began to lean out of his window, putting his hands on the sill so that we could crane his way out of the window.
He couldn’t find a source of the wispy, soft female vocals.

“Come fly with me down to Peru, In llama land there’s a one man band…”

Some small movement on the farthest reach of the alley, now a rolling bottle.
His eyes followed the path the bottle had taken back to a
cluster of shadows.
And he could see the outline of a young woman.
Hard to see from 5 stories up, but there was someone there.
He leaned further out the window now, to see if he could get a better
look at her.
She stepped closer to the light and he could see a little more of her.
His right hand crept up to the curtain of the window, which he grabbed onto and began to use to lean further out the into the warm night.
And she moved a step closer to the light and her song seemed to fill his head.

Once I get you up there where the air is rarified, We’ll just glide, starry eyed…”

Half of his body now hung out of the window, supported only by the
single red curtain that he clung to.
And with each inch of red, soft fabric slip that he let slip through his hand,
she drew closer to the light.
He could almost see her.
He had to see her.
He NEEDED to see her.
The thought of seeing the face of the beautiful girl serenading was driving
him mad.

“You just say the words and we’ll beat the birds, Down to Acapulco Bay…”


Then there was a knock at his door, and hit started him so that he
almost fell from his 5th story window.
His heart raced.
Christ that was close… he thought to himself.
He made his way to the door and opened it.
There stood the girl from the alley, the one who had been singing to him.
He was speechless.
She smiled and asked, “may I come in?”
To which he said, “yes” with his eyes twinkling.
She moved through the threshold of the apartment in her short red dress.
Her pale skin and dark hair gave him chills.
She sat him down on the couch in this living room.
“Who are you? What’s your name? How did you get up here so fast…”
he began to spout questions.
She moved her fingers to his slips and whispered, “shhhh.”
In the next moment she was on top of him kissing him hard and
running her hands and fingers through his hair and all over his back.
He wrapped his arms around her and kissed hard back.
He pulled back and buried his face in her bosom, breathing in deep
to take in the sweet perfume she was wearing.
That night they made love and the days after were spent together.
The time seemed to fly by.
Dating.
Fighting.
Making up.
Travelling.
Moving in.
Proposing.
Marriage. (They danced to “Come Fly With Me” for their first dance)
House.
Kids.
In what seemed to be a blink of an eye he lay on his deathbed.
Worn and tired from his full life with his beautiful, mysterious wife,
the same that had serenaded him on a stale summer night.
She sat on the bed next to him, holding his hand smiling at him.
“Thank you,” she quietly crooned.
“Thank you for what?” he asked.
A thin smile drew across her old face, “for dinner.”

He woke from his dream moments before hitting the pavement.
The ground rushing towards him so fast, he didn’t have time to realize
that there had never been a knock at his door.
That he had let too much curtain through his grasp and that he had
indeed fallen, a full 5 stories.
And that all the moments that had been part of what he had believed to be his life, were all due to the siren’s song.

“Come fly with me, let’s fly, let’s fly. Pack up, Let’s fly away.”

She exposed herself fully to the moonlight now.
Her pale, scaly, rough skin and long, curved claws were now fully visible.
She tilted her head back and sent out a screech, to let the others know that it was time to eat.